Evelyn was born so peacefully

Evelyn was born so peacefully yesterday morning.  As she emerged, we quietly dried her off and handed her to her mom … who was, of course, glowing.  The exhaustion and exhiliration of childbirth always amazes me. 

What a privilidge it is to be able to witness such important events — to be invited into these most intimate moments.

Intimate, too is the other end.  Josphine was only 72.  Last week, Jennie called me.  "Mom's not looking so good.  She's decided that she wants to come to the hospital."  Jennie and I had talked the day before.  Josephine had pneumonia and had preferred to stay home.   Until now.

I met them at the hospital.   I think it was about 11:30.  Josephine looked tired, but she was clearly relieved to be in the hospital.  She had lost weight since the last time I had seen her.  Wearing two hooded sweatshirts, and a pair of sweatpants,  her small face poked out from the hood like Nanook on the tundra.

We talked for a long time that night.   Longer, I think, than we had in the past.  She told me she was happy that she came to the hospital.  She felt safe.  She didn't want to die yet.

Chuck sent an e-mail out to family and friends over the weekend.  He sent a picture too.  There she was in the hooded sweatshirt.

Josephine's spirit was alive.  Her mind was clear, and focused, and bright.  She wasn't ready to die.   But  She hadn't been the same since she went to the hospital in September.  Not eating enough, not doing her physical theray exercises  .. she was simply too weak to fight off the pneumonia.

It is these times of high-tech medicine, we physicians often find ourselves ordering tests and using expensive tools (?toys?) to treat our patients.  Yet the special moments are what makes it all so valuable.  Michael Murphy, in his recent book on Dying and living, clearly outlines how important and how valuable all of the facets of our life experiences are — including death.